Phenomenon: Room Diet/Let Go
A while back I decided to renovate my room and fix some ancient things that were overlooked by myself. Renovation went well and the room looks delightful.
Many items were thrown inside boxes for me to look at and I finally decided to dedicate this past week just to clean, clear, take out, wipe whatever items that do not make sense anymore or are irrelative to my current lifestyle.
The room went from full to empty.
My brain too.
I never knew that there were so many irritating items hanging there in the room making me feel uncomfortable for some reason.
While I was in my UNemotional shove and throw scene, I saw that tape above, I never knew it was still in my room, I thought it was lost.
I starred at it for a while, played the tape, saw the play, laughed a bit, sipped coffee, had a moment of silence. Then I knew it was coming, that memory train came in rushing from all sides, the old me wanted to reminisce, I accepted these thoughts and gave them space to marinate, I wanted to know where these thoughts would take me.
The current me told my conscious to throw the tape right into the trash bin.
I threw the tape, I threw all the attachments that came with it with ZERO hesitation.
As soon as I threw that one tape, I threw many other things too and I realized how slowly my facial expression was rapidly pushing me to accept this moment as it is and smile because I saved myself before its too late.
Then, I remembered how many people I know hold on to many things in their rooms. These things are not valuable, the memories are, or so they think. When you ask ” Throw it will you ?” answers are usually a simple NO. or the following ” I cant, you don’t understand”, ” This reminds me of so and so but that person is not here now, I still like to look at it from time to time”.
That, my dear, is what stupidity is and I say that with love because its not affecting me, its all YOU/From YOU/to YOU.
Everyday you wake up saying/wishing/hoping/praying for something bigger and better. Thats nice. You wont get it though.
Keyword here is “Pattern”. Thats how so many people live their lives. Same pattern, same attitude with different wishes. Just wont happen. BECAUSE you, by this behavior, are not allowing these blessings to come. You think your better off by sticking to your past, your glorious past, your hot and steamy past. How many months, years ago was that ? How is this relevant now ?
Holding on to gifts, pictures, voice & short messages are examples of what I saw/witnessed from many people. I know some who held on to’em for years.
Imagine this. You are always moving ahead because time is pushing you, like it or not. If your moving ahead while looking back all the time, you’ll definitely stumble upon a wall. If you look ahead, you’ll aim at the stairs or better yet, a lift and go high/er in no time .
“Me and my story” thats what most people are afraid to let go off. One person told me “It’s what makes me special, I suffered so much and it gives me a big sympathy boost across those who im interested in”. Another said ” I never had enough attention, I need more attention and I need to be in control” So what these people do is hold on to things that reminds them of what made them feel special sometime in the past. This might sound crazy but even the musical playlist they go about is as gloomy as they are. They relate to it to deepen that feeling.
What about now ? Don’t you deserve to be happy/special/human ? You think your not worthy ? Cuz I think you are. I think that its funny how YOU live your life waiting for something to happen as apposed to YOU making what YOU want come to YOU.
Take this matter a bit higher in your current dysfunctional brain, this actually might help. GOD/Energy/Consciousness/the higher being or whatever it is you believe in, brought you to this life for a purpose, a divine purpose. He wanted you to embrace the gifts, joy and abundance he bestowed upon you, while he does that, you chose to neglect all the good and focus on the misery brought upon yourself with another slave.
How smart is that ?
A bright mentor of mine always mentions this example to those who complain alot ” On a big white board, they focus on the small black dot”.
Accept the now. Write a new story. Become the people you envy. Instead of jealousy, try celebrating them, it’ll rub off on you.
I understand that what I typed might be misty and unclear. Its how I wanted to vent out that thought in mind.