Phenomenon: Room Diet/Let Go
A while back I decided to renovate my room and fix some ancient things that were overlooked by myself. Renovation went well and the room looks delightful.
Many items were thrown inside boxes for me to look at and I finally decided to dedicate this past week just to clean, clear, take out, wipe whatever items that do not make sense anymore or are irrelative to my current lifestyle.
The room went from full to empty.
My brain too.
I never knew that there were so many irritating items hanging there in the room making me feel uncomfortable for some reason.
While I was in my UNemotional shove and throw scene, I saw that tape above, I never knew it was still in my room, I thought it was lost.
I starred at it for a while, played the tape, saw the play, laughed a bit, sipped coffee, had a moment of silence. Then I knew it was coming, that memory train came in rushing from all sides, the old me wanted to reminisce, I accepted these thoughts and gave them space to marinate, I wanted to know where these thoughts would take me.
The current me told my conscious to throw the tape right into the trash bin.
I did.
I threw the tape, I threw all the attachments that came with it with ZERO hesitation.
As soon as I threw that one tape, I threw many other things too and I realized how slowly my facial expression was rapidly pushing me to accept this moment as it is and smile because I saved myself before its too late.
Then, I remembered how many people I know hold on to many things in their rooms. These things are not valuable, the memories are, or so they think. When you ask ” Throw it will you ?” answers are usually a simple NO. or the following ” I cant, you don’t understand”, ” This reminds me of so and so but that person is not here now, I still like to look at it from time to time”.
That, my dear, is what stupidity is and I say that with love because its not affecting me, its all YOU/From YOU/to YOU.
Everyday you wake up saying/wishing/hoping/praying for something bigger and better. Thats nice. You wont get it though.
Keyword here is “Pattern”. Thats how so many people live their lives. Same pattern, same attitude with different wishes. Just wont happen. BECAUSE you, by this behavior, are not allowing these blessings to come. You think your better off by sticking to your past, your glorious past, your hot and steamy past. How many months, years ago was that ? How is this relevant now ?
Holding on to gifts, pictures, voice & short messages are examples of what I saw/witnessed from many people. I know some who held on to’em for years.
Imagine this. You are always moving ahead because time is pushing you, like it or not. If your moving ahead while looking back all the time, you’ll definitely stumble upon a wall. If you look ahead, you’ll aim at the stairs or better yet, a lift and go high/er in no time .
“Me and my story” thats what most people are afraid to let go off. One person told me “It’s what makes me special, I suffered so much and it gives me a big sympathy boost across those who im interested in”. Another said ” I never had enough attention, I need more attention and I need to be in control” So what these people do is hold on to things that reminds them of what made them feel special sometime in the past. This might sound crazy but even the musical playlist they go about is as gloomy as they are. They relate to it to deepen that feeling.
What about now ? Don’t you deserve to be happy/special/human ? You think your not worthy ? Cuz I think you are. I think that its funny how YOU live your life waiting for something to happen as apposed to YOU making what YOU want come to YOU.
Take this matter a bit higher in your current dysfunctional brain, this actually might help. GOD/Energy/Consciousness/the higher being or whatever it is you believe in, brought you to this life for a purpose, a divine purpose. He wanted you to embrace the gifts, joy and abundance he bestowed upon you, while he does that, you chose to neglect all the good and focus on the misery brought upon yourself with another slave.
How smart is that ?
A bright mentor of mine always mentions this example to those who complain alot ” On a big white board, they focus on the small black dot”.
My Take:
Accept the now. Write a new story. Become the people you envy. Instead of jealousy, try celebrating them, it’ll rub off on you.
I understand that what I typed might be misty and unclear. Its how I wanted to vent out that thought in mind.
Wow ! Very inspiring .. We should all “format” and have a new start ..
Hey there Noor, thanks for dropping by !
Glad you liked it
if i can show you how much papers and books i have from uni i can’t let go of because i dont want to throw away that knowledge piled up.. i bet you would throw them away instantly
I’ve got tons of DVDs.. i can’t throw away. they are all collectors editions!
board games.. my kid cousins loves em i play with em
stuffed animals.. yeah i wish i can throw away.. but i am holding on to them because they take me back to our old apartment.. to remember good times .. i make new memories all the time but i ilke to keep old ones too i guess.
and the VHS videos i have.. i keep telling myself convert them into dvds or something then into an external drive to save it.. there are just some things u can’t throw away… i keep telin myself maybe i can sell them on ebay later lol.
there are sooo many boxes and bags with the most trivial things i reaally dont need… i just never made the time to get them out because i’m always busy trying to make new memories and working and hanging with friends.. i barely stay at home.. I need to stop saying ba3dain and do it now.. but i wanna go to the gym today .. watch my tv show and go to school to work on my thesis lol.. good excuses or bad excuses???:P
If you do not collect the things you want to sell today and put’em in a box, you’ll never do it.
You are already giving excuses for letting them stay/rot/marinate in your room for no legitimate reason. It could be two things, you cant let go OR your to lazy to do what you gotta do, yes ?
letting go is the issue.. lazy nope
therefore.. i started thinking..and came up with a little solution.. i started with a bag.. i had with lots of papers and cds..i found a brochure from disneyland paris..took a pic of it.. and threw it away and gonna upload it on my personal webpages.. anytime i fetl like reminscing id log on ..
my music cds.. gonna itune them and be thrown away for good
at a girl. I still have my cds in excellent format, i might giveem to a friend or donate them to whoever wants them.
Speaking of CDs.3 cds that i loved playin on and on in my car can’t seem to find them U2′s vertical horizon, Switchfoot’s nothing is sound and 3 doors down!:( including my hairspray and wicked cds lol
A rocker I see ? I go more mellow with R&B beats, OHH !
No not just a rocker.. I like music from each Genre with artist specifications and certain beats
but the free subscription is over:P
i’d go from pop, rock, RnB to latin and broadway musicals. I even subscribed to Rolling stone for free
playlist for this week would have to be
Forever Young Jay-Z f. mr.hudson
I need You now-Lady Antebellum
I made it – Kevin Rudolph
Nothin on you – B.O.B. f. Bruno Mars
All I can say Suh-Weeet
there are things in our past we want to get rid of easily, but there are certain elements and objects i dont think we should throw away..great birthday gifts keep them, louzy gifts throw em
so in 10 15 years time.. you can smile looking back it was part of who u are and how it made you change. i guess thats how i see it.
text books from college.. always come in handy.. we just need a storage room to too keep our past treasures safe.. just not in our rooms
Things of that nature is fine to have around. Its the things that come to us from other people, there lays the issue.
The opposite happened to me exactly last week… my mom threw all our old video tapes out, i wait for her to look away and i go grab me some jam3iya bags and take hold of whatever i could salvage! She threw out Sindibad! and My Ramadan 1994 mix tape!!! O even superman I and II!!!
The bags are now hiding in my apartment waiting for a free week to be wiped clean and displayed proudly on my new shelve space which i am going to make somewhere in the vicinity of this week… maybe month…
Elmohim they are safe and sound <3
HAHA !! why do you want to keep them though ?
girl i have vhs tapes for ktv2 and 80s music videos stacked up in my cabin.. i just need to find a close sstore to convert them and put them on my terra external
old dawood and intisar variety shows.. abdulllah rowaishid..shereehan loool
Inspiring…. My main problem is nostalgia
love my past!!! but as you said, I will rethink about the present and future, will give the past a big hug and farewelland start a new cough cough ME 
I love how you described the farewell part.
Thats was so short but so beautifully written. I wish you well in your journey, you’ll enjoy it, trust me.